Hasty decisions

Last year I had taken upon the task of studying for a postgrad course on a distance education programme.

There are a few reasons why I took this decision, despite knowing how little time I would have left over in a day after working a full-time job, and being thoroughly aware of how much attention three pets and a partner require:

1. The urge to do something other than my tedious day-job surged in me like boiling lava, and before I knew it, I had enrolled myself in a course.

2. I thought it would be a cool experiment to study something I had no interest in, and see if I could do it. So, I chose "Public Administration".

3. It felt possible to me then, because the University allowed the students to finish the course in three to four years, instead of the usual two. 

4. I rather fancied I could be one those people who study many different things just for the heck of it.

Now, after a year and a few months, I have only read a few pages, haven't submitted (or written) any of the assignments and have no idea of how to start getting a grip on things. Also, the subject is, quite obviously, very boring. But I continue to hope at the end of every day that I shall study a page or two tonight, and if not tonight, then surely tomorrow night.

Perhaps trying to unearth interesting things in my course material so that I can blog about them will inspire me to study?

Blogging v2.0

 Pros:

1. It will keep me in the habit of writing, which honestly, has become one of my least practiced hobbies for the past five years.

2.  It will encourage me to be always on the lookout for interesting things about which to blog, or at least think.

3. It will help me to work on my crippling fear of talking to people whom I do not know well (in hopes of blogging about the encounters).

4. It will encourage me to use language beyond the desiccated, official literature I have to consume and generate at work.

5. In some measure, I feel, it will help me with my talking remedy. I do not know yet in what form this may or may not happen.

Cons: 

1. I might, quite possibly, lose interest and abandon this pursuit in a couple of months, or even weeks.

2. I write best when I am writing for myself, in my private journals. While blogging, presuming eyes other than mine will be reading my words, I might try too hard or try to sound a way that I am not. 

3. I will make a fool of myself.

Here we go, again.